Life isn't perfect

Life isn't perfect, like what the heck? 

There are days where I wonder what it'd actually feel like to be my mom and experience what she is going through. I want to understand and have more appreciation! I'm a teenager and I'm selfish, I get it! "I try so hard to piss" my parents off! Hmm I honestly sometimes feel like I am kicking butt and that I do so much, but my parents never seem to fail to call me lazy. 

Their using reverse psychology all wrong! By telling me how lazy I am make a me want to show them how lazy I really could be!! I'm the type of person that wants to be told "good job" or "wow you are soo good!" Why do you think I have picked cosmetology as one of my future career options, it is super rewarding! 

Waiting for Tyler is super rewarding, not only will I get to marry him and receive all the blessings from the temple, BUT everyone will tell me good job for waiting! Haha that is NOT the only reason I'm waiting, haha that would be silly! 

Which brings me too....

Pinterest.... Pinterest shows me what close to perfect people can accomplish.. Not only can they accomplish making impossible things possible, but they make all of us not even close to perfect people feel like crap.. 

I'm in a stump, I want to be creative, and organized, and constantly dressing and looking cute, and cooking these absolutely amazing meals while awaiting my sexy husband(Tyler) to get home from work and kiss me and tell me I look awesome! 

Like why can't life be perfect like that?! 

Then there are days like today where you get all dressed up and cute to take one good picture to send to your lovely missionary and then you get dressed into some pj shorts and a jacket and put your hair up, because you just don't want to deal. 

                   I wish I was creative! 

I wish I could be more put together

     I wish I had a better attitude

  I wish my parents appreciated me more

          I wish school could be more rewarding

   I wish these braces were off

I wish the two years were up

                

    ALL IN ALL LIFE IS GREAT! 

Life isn't perfect, and that's okay, there are so many things I wish I was good at, and we all have our insecurities. BUT if you can look at what you have and what you can do and still smile a real smile, life is great. God didn't send us here to live a perfect life, but to learn and grow and appreciate the things we have, regardless on if we feel rewarded or not.